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One has to be selfish with their decisions, but cannot detach themselves from the aging of time. The future is a scary concept because every second progresses from being the future, becoming the present and then staying in the past. At an early age I discovered my passion for art. I was so distant from my future, I thought, that I could imagine myself doing this for a living without extra consequences. In second grade I constructed a model of a museum made of wood, thus instilling the idea of becoming an architect when I ‘grew up.’ It wasn’t until seventh grade did I realize that architecture is a hard job to make a living from. The forcefulness of my upcoming future damaged my dream of being an architect and made me rethink my passion altogether. That is exactly why I’m scared of the future. There is no room to make mistakes because age does not rewind and detachment is the only solution. I then shifted my medium to graphical art because those artists tend to have easier time making money than architects. Moreover, I am majoring in art at Chapman University this fall with an undeclared medium because I’m honestly scared that I will choose the wrong one. A recent survey came from Papermag.com that stated the top thirteen most useless majors one receives in college; number one on the list is Fine Arts, my major. Number four on the list is Commercial Art and Graphic Design which is more my interest now, but the future ultimately decides. Although I have to be selfish with my own happiness, the future prevents one from actually fulfilling their initial dream sometimes.  

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Time is a concept that is inescapable, and the only solution is to accept the terms and conditions. Moral growth as well as age accompanies time as a person lives their life. One of my biggest fears deals with the pressuring outcome of my future. As I get older, time becomes more precious which is a scary conception because time doesn’t stop for anybody. Camus’ The Stranger exemplifies how selfishness leads to detachment as time continues to proceed. Mersault lives entrapped inside his own head and is too busy not caring about the death of his mother; eventually, his morality morphs into realizing how precious time matters. Narrowing down your desires is the most important part of the process, but then financial issues and happiness paves the road to survive in society. Art has always been a passion of mine, but I had to shift the medium because of my financial situation for the future. The future makes no exceptions for happiness, only learning how to financially survive. The decision between doing the job you love competes against the resources and income you receive for the needed basis of survival; however, selfishness fuels detachment and the awareness of time.

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main idea: selfishness leads to detachment; merusault is too selfish with his own feelings to feel sympathy or realize the death of his mother. merusault's growth
second work used in essay: lauren's picture (?)
analysis of lauren's picture: This photo conveys the sense of stationary objects and motionless life. The only living thing in the object, the boy, is being boxed in by the wall paper and all the different sized squares. The boy is also the only abnormal shape. However, even though he's the only living thing in the picture, there are objects that are frozen in motion. The waves on the screen as well as the clock are captured in motion. The waves and time are things that the boy has no control over because they will continue to move (contrasting in the photo)
quote(s) from camus:
- first sentences of novel signal immediate detachment
-"...for the first time in years, I had this stupid urge to cry, because I could feel how much all these people hated me." Chapter 3, pg. 90
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Kitchen photo

This photo conveys the sense of stationary objects and motionless life. The only living thing in the object, the boy, is being boxed in by the wall paper and all the different sized squares. The boy is also the only abnormal shape. However, even though he's the only living thing in the picture, there are objects that are frozen in motion. The waves on the screen as well as the clock are captured in motion. The waves and time are things that the boy has no control over because they will continue to move (contrasting in the photo).

Romania Photo

In the Romania picture, the couple is surrounded by darnkess by the inside of the room and the night from outside. The contrast between light and darkness illuminates the uncomfortable tone of the picture. Also, the lady in the picture provokes the uneasiness of the location and (possibly) their relationship alone. The lady's arm and the man's arm around the lady's head frame the discomfort shown on the lady's face, thus the lady is the central image.